The Symptoms, it starting to make sense

After speaking to the doctors, the neurologist in particular and with the help of hindsight, if I am honest the symptoms have been on show for a couple of years.

Apathy, body stiffness, memory issues, blurred vison and tripping amongst others are symptoms I can recognize. The apathy I think is the earliest sign for me personally, I have had it for at least three years. One example, I was one f the original five persons who started working in a small family firm, it was exciting and many promises were made. The initial excitement wore off and was replaced with apathy. So much so that even being badly treated, promised shares etc. and never receiving them....I could not be bothered with anything, let alone chasing something they had no intention of ever delivering. I parted company with them and to be honest, I felt nothing...as I was going to work as it was what we had to do, going through the motions, no excitement, no fun, no interest; no wonder it ended.

I knew it was not depression, being an alcoholic in recovery, I had seen and and experienced depression previously. Apathy is different. It's a strange feeling, not being high or low, just feeling nothing.

It was easy to dismiss the symptoms as individual signs of getting old, the ego would kick-in and push them all to one side....I am getting old but just hide behind the mask sort of thing. When my golf started to suffer, then and only then did I earnestly try and resolve the issue!

I back in the swing of things now, I have a new job, new attitude (thanks to Parkinson's) and the future is exciting...really. The next post will uncover what it was like after I came out of hospital.